Morning Weight: 107lb
12:34pm
It's lunch time. I haven't eaten a bite all day.
But to be honest, my throat really hurts, so I have a valid reason.
I can feel the hunger pangs, and I haven't got my water bottle (which isn't good), but I'm sure I'll manage. I just won't lose as much today due to water weight.
Damn.
3:05pm
I hate her.
I hate Miss P.
I hate her!
Nothing is ever enough for her! Even when I do my best, it's always "You can do better than that."
WELL MAYBE I CAN'T.
Just maybe, that's actually the best I can do.
And people wonder why I don't think anything I do is good enough.
Because she's been around and on my back since Year 7.
She taught me that crying is weak.
She taught me that nothing I ever do is good enough, and I can always be better.
Well she's right.
I can be better.
I can stop eating.
I can be skinny.
I can be beautiful.
I can be rich.
I can be successful.
BUT NOT WITH HER AROUND.
That's it though, she's right. I'm nowhere near good enough. I was going to have dinner today, but fuck it.
16 hours fasted so far.
Why stop?
I'm not good enough yet.
So why stop?
12:34pm
It's lunch time. I haven't eaten a bite all day.
But to be honest, my throat really hurts, so I have a valid reason.
I can feel the hunger pangs, and I haven't got my water bottle (which isn't good), but I'm sure I'll manage. I just won't lose as much today due to water weight.
Damn.
3:05pm
I hate her.
I hate Miss P.
I hate her!
Nothing is ever enough for her! Even when I do my best, it's always "You can do better than that."
WELL MAYBE I CAN'T.
Just maybe, that's actually the best I can do.
And people wonder why I don't think anything I do is good enough.
Because she's been around and on my back since Year 7.
She taught me that crying is weak.
She taught me that nothing I ever do is good enough, and I can always be better.
Well she's right.
I can be better.
I can stop eating.
I can be skinny.
I can be beautiful.
I can be rich.
I can be successful.
BUT NOT WITH HER AROUND.
That's it though, she's right. I'm nowhere near good enough. I was going to have dinner today, but fuck it.
16 hours fasted so far.
Why stop?
I'm not good enough yet.
So why stop?
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