Morning Weight: 100lb
11:25am
I feel so tired. Literally, exhausted. I couldn't focus enough to write my English essay introduction paragraph, I have to go and write a two-page essay this lunch time that I haven't done, and I'm meant to film some of my tech today, but honestly I feel sick, tired, and just shitty overall.
Yesterday, I had my 5 portions of Raspberries (50g each), so I only had 135kcal in total yesterday, as well as working a 10hr shift at work... And because I couldn't weigh myself on Saturday, I don't know where I'm up to, and what pace I'm going at.
Today is raspberries again, for the last time. So 135kcal today, then tomorrow I move on to 125g mango a day, and fasting every few days. I imagine it'll be more difficult, as 125g mango is 74kcal, which is even less, but I'm not giving up anymore. I'm not bingeing anymore, no more Gluten, no more nuts (after that Honey Roast Cashew mono I tried, I'm absolutely sick of anything nutty...), and from now on I'll be living off of pretty much just fruit for most of the time up to Christmas. Even on Christmas, I'm going to restrict, I'm not going to binge. All the way up to new year, and then keep going.
Speaking of which, I need to start planning next year....
12:31pm
Well, here I go... Facing Miss P., my media teacher, and having to sit with her and not write anything but the title...
I look forward to the disappointment, embarrassment, anger, and lowering self worth I will be experiencing this lunch time.
Better eat my raspberries now, I don't want her cottoning on... Her BS meter is highly sensitive, especially with me.
Fuck.
11:25am
I feel so tired. Literally, exhausted. I couldn't focus enough to write my English essay introduction paragraph, I have to go and write a two-page essay this lunch time that I haven't done, and I'm meant to film some of my tech today, but honestly I feel sick, tired, and just shitty overall.
Yesterday, I had my 5 portions of Raspberries (50g each), so I only had 135kcal in total yesterday, as well as working a 10hr shift at work... And because I couldn't weigh myself on Saturday, I don't know where I'm up to, and what pace I'm going at.
Today is raspberries again, for the last time. So 135kcal today, then tomorrow I move on to 125g mango a day, and fasting every few days. I imagine it'll be more difficult, as 125g mango is 74kcal, which is even less, but I'm not giving up anymore. I'm not bingeing anymore, no more Gluten, no more nuts (after that Honey Roast Cashew mono I tried, I'm absolutely sick of anything nutty...), and from now on I'll be living off of pretty much just fruit for most of the time up to Christmas. Even on Christmas, I'm going to restrict, I'm not going to binge. All the way up to new year, and then keep going.
Speaking of which, I need to start planning next year....
12:31pm
Well, here I go... Facing Miss P., my media teacher, and having to sit with her and not write anything but the title...
I look forward to the disappointment, embarrassment, anger, and lowering self worth I will be experiencing this lunch time.
Better eat my raspberries now, I don't want her cottoning on... Her BS meter is highly sensitive, especially with me.
Fuck.
Evening Weight: 100lb
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