Morning Weight: 102lb
9:57am
So it's happened. I'm triple figures again. Great.
But my tattoo is healing very well, I'm finally able to move freely (and somewhat exercise!) again, and my Walden Farms order arrived within 24hrs of me receiving the email saying it had been sent off!
It's very exciting, I can't wait to try out and review everything!
I didn't post yesterday because it was just an awful day. I ate two tubs of ice cream, lots of doughnuts and biscuits... I don't think any of it was Gluten Free and honestly my body had a go at me for it.
Maybe one day, if I eat enough Gluten, I'll die.... Who knows haha!
But anyway, today is a new day, I've just completed writing an essay for school, and I'm meeting up with a friend in town later. I really don't want to... I'm triple figures for crying out loud, I'm so much fatter! Not only that, but Garfield wants to meet up later too... I really don't want to... I want to lose at least 10-15lb, basically a stone, before he sees me again. He can't see me so fat... I can't deal with that. I can't deal with the lies that would spill out of his mouth, all the "You're beautiful"s, the "no really you are"s, the "I don't care what you weigh"s, the "You're so skinny"s....
NO I'm freaking not!! Stop lying to me! Stop it! Why is it so hard for people to tell the truth about my weight?! They think I can't handle it, they think I'll cry and get upset. No I won't. I can handle it, because it's the truth and I already know the truth, so it doesn't affect me.
Well anyway, today I'm starting a fast. But this time, if my body tries to take control and binge, I'll just shove it full of fruits and vegetables.
I plan to fruit/water fast until 4th November next Tuesday, when I will start the Sweet Tiny Body diet. The diet actually starts with a fasting day, so I'll have fruit/water fasted for 6 days instead of 5. Not only that, but if I fruit fast for 5-6 days, the STB diet is only fruit and fasting, and not even that much fruit, so I'll not only be fruit/water fasting for 6 days, but also for the 18 days of the STB diet. 24 days of fruit fasting.... 3 weeks of fruit fasting...
I'm sure I can lose at least 10lb in the next 3 weeks.
9:57am
So it's happened. I'm triple figures again. Great.
But my tattoo is healing very well, I'm finally able to move freely (and somewhat exercise!) again, and my Walden Farms order arrived within 24hrs of me receiving the email saying it had been sent off!
It's very exciting, I can't wait to try out and review everything!
I didn't post yesterday because it was just an awful day. I ate two tubs of ice cream, lots of doughnuts and biscuits... I don't think any of it was Gluten Free and honestly my body had a go at me for it.
Maybe one day, if I eat enough Gluten, I'll die.... Who knows haha!
But anyway, today is a new day, I've just completed writing an essay for school, and I'm meeting up with a friend in town later. I really don't want to... I'm triple figures for crying out loud, I'm so much fatter! Not only that, but Garfield wants to meet up later too... I really don't want to... I want to lose at least 10-15lb, basically a stone, before he sees me again. He can't see me so fat... I can't deal with that. I can't deal with the lies that would spill out of his mouth, all the "You're beautiful"s, the "no really you are"s, the "I don't care what you weigh"s, the "You're so skinny"s....
NO I'm freaking not!! Stop lying to me! Stop it! Why is it so hard for people to tell the truth about my weight?! They think I can't handle it, they think I'll cry and get upset. No I won't. I can handle it, because it's the truth and I already know the truth, so it doesn't affect me.
Well anyway, today I'm starting a fast. But this time, if my body tries to take control and binge, I'll just shove it full of fruits and vegetables.
I plan to fruit/water fast until 4th November next Tuesday, when I will start the Sweet Tiny Body diet. The diet actually starts with a fasting day, so I'll have fruit/water fasted for 6 days instead of 5. Not only that, but if I fruit fast for 5-6 days, the STB diet is only fruit and fasting, and not even that much fruit, so I'll not only be fruit/water fasting for 6 days, but also for the 18 days of the STB diet. 24 days of fruit fasting.... 3 weeks of fruit fasting...
I'm sure I can lose at least 10lb in the next 3 weeks.
11:22pm
I'm sure nobody would care...
No one would mind if I just disappeared...
I'm invisible to everyone anyways.
Not like it'd make a difference.
It doesn't matter whether I'm breathing or not.
Evening Weight: 103lb
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