Morning Weight: 94lb
3:32pm
I've decided I'm not going to force myself to eat if I don't want to, even if I'm meant to be doing the ABC diet.
I'll probably start it again from Day 1 next year, and do it properly all the way through, but right now I just feel that I don't like food being in my stomach. I've never purged a single piece of fruit before, so the fact I did that this morning must mean something.
I tried to go to the gym today, but only managed to burn 60kcal - so disappointing! I can't wait until Monday, when I'll be going to my school's lunchtime running club.
I'm also going to start teaching myself to leave food on the plate. It's not like I need more than a few bites. I need to stop my body being out of control and eating everything.
Garfield's on his way to pick me up, then we're going out to see a movie and to go bowling, then it's back to mine for cuddles. Should be good I hope, especially as I both purged and burned off the calories from that nectarine, so I'm well and truly empty!
It feels so nice... This light, pure, free feeling.
Just perfect.
7:46am
I wish I lived alone.
I couldn't weigh myself properly this morning, because the scales are in the living room, and one of my parents is always in there...
My morning weight, therefore, is inaccurate- it includes clothes, water I've drunk this morning and the nectarine (60) I had for breakfast.
9:45am
I just purged the nectarine...
I'm meant to be doing the ABC diet! How can I accurately stay at the calorie limits when I keep throwing everything up?
Maybe I should stop doing the diet... I just don't like food in my stomach anymore. Without it, I feel so light and pure.
I'm seeing Garfield later. After I've been to the gym, of course! I'm going on the cross trainer, and I aim to burn 300kcal-500kcal. 300 being the least.
I'm 4lb away from my second goal weight. It would also be a new lowest for me!
I can actually do this!
3:32pm
I've decided I'm not going to force myself to eat if I don't want to, even if I'm meant to be doing the ABC diet.
I'll probably start it again from Day 1 next year, and do it properly all the way through, but right now I just feel that I don't like food being in my stomach. I've never purged a single piece of fruit before, so the fact I did that this morning must mean something.
I tried to go to the gym today, but only managed to burn 60kcal - so disappointing! I can't wait until Monday, when I'll be going to my school's lunchtime running club.
I'm also going to start teaching myself to leave food on the plate. It's not like I need more than a few bites. I need to stop my body being out of control and eating everything.
Garfield's on his way to pick me up, then we're going out to see a movie and to go bowling, then it's back to mine for cuddles. Should be good I hope, especially as I both purged and burned off the calories from that nectarine, so I'm well and truly empty!
It feels so nice... This light, pure, free feeling.
Just perfect.
11:18pm
We went to the bowling alley, and played a game of bowling, and we danced on the dance step machine in the arcade too. I only burned about 45kcal in total but something's better than nothing I guess.
After that, Garfield and I went to the cinema. We saw a movie called Guardians Of The Galaxy, and it was actually really good!
Then, it was back to mine for cuddles. I loved how warm his hands felt against my skin, as he ran his hands over my body... As much as I hate my body, it's nice to feel like there's someone who doesn't. And I'm sure he'll love me even more when I'm skinny and beautiful!
Evening Weight: 93lb
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