Tuesday, 24th February, 2015

9:59am
For the past month or so, I have been living off of one Double CHoca Mocha in the morning (91) and half a tin of vegan-friendly soup in the evening (50-100)


I have lost weight very quickly, though I haven't been weighing myself, and my idea to be vegan over lent as a way of cutting out a huge amount of foods has worked incredibly.


Yesterday was a little odd. I did well, however I binged on Blue Ready-Roll Icing (392 per 100g), and so spent my evening purging.


I have reached the stage where I am barely eating anything, and if I eat anything other than my mocha and my soup, I purge it.


So I not only did it once or twice yesterday, but went until I felt the sting of bile in my mouth, and it tasted awful. Because, I have to say, it was kind of enjoyable in a way to purge the icing, as what came out was a nice, vibrant blue colour, and it actually tasted nice and sweet on the way out, unlike a lot of foods (then again, icing is nearly pure sugar so that's no surprise)


I've taken to wearing lots of layers so people perceive me as "podgy/normal" and so mother doesn't suspect, and I now work out in bed until I ache.


Things are going well, though I could barely get out of bed yesterday due to being so lightheaded and tired.
Maybe I'll be 70 for prom in July, who knows.